nurulhannaaaaa is backkkkkkk~! ^^




i know its been a while since i last update this blog.
th last time was a month ago perhaps?
haha, not that many stop by my blog.
so,honestly i dont really care that much.
but im back now.
literally back.
both ways.
back to blogging
though i might not be updating every single seconds oof my life.
but i will update ocassionally~
and im back to my own happy self now.

im stronger now.
no,seriously.
headstrong.
but still sad dramas makes me cry.

i stop telling stories becaue.
i faced a major set back in my life.
it felt like as if i hit rock bottom in life.
plus th pressure i received from people around me.
its really depressing.

that time, i really see my self going nowhere in life.
like as if all th opportunities th world offer me
just shut itself close.
and i dont even get a chance to actually show my self.
my true potential.

people just look down on me like as if
i cannot make it happen in life.
but i know some how, i will make it big.
prove them wrong.
life will lead me somewhere.
im just sure that will happen.

i totally shut myself from th outside world.
like as if every single soul on earth just found out that i failed.
i locked myself out fr almost a week after that.
i didnt blog, didnt facebooked.
all because i was jealous of my friends,of people who made it somewhere.
at least.
yea, i know im kindda being a bitch dealing with these situations.
seriously, try putting yrself in my shoes.
i didnt even go out, because im really afraid og meeting
someone i know,and them asking me about it.
so, i totally cut off all th ties i had with my life.
my eyes had never been that painful for such a long time.
th whole week,i did nothing but mourn over it.
i chuck everything about it aside.

it feels like depression.

it felt like a bad dream.
like a nightmare,that i will somehow wake up from.
but it isnt.

those times, my sister was th one next to me.
encouraging me, pulling me up.
making me believe in my dreams back again.

and at that point of time.
i found how amazing my religion was.
not that i had turn pious or anything.
but only now, i realised what people meant by,
at times when they fail, that is when they found god.
well somehting like that.
so i found him.
i seek to him.

it really felt like as if he hears every single word i said.
and that he is consoling me somehow.
you know, when you feel it.
its just so soothing.
like he heard my prayers,
he gave me strength.
he gave me courage to just stand up and face it.

because somehow,
i got to face th truth somehow.

th feeling of rejoicing after you fall.
standing back up.
facing th world.

it felt good.
really good.

im stronger now.

thennn came a really good news.
when i got back up.
>_< I GOT INTO SHATEC~!
th school of my dreams.
god must have heard my prayers.
hahahaha.

it was unbelievable news fr me.
a gift from god.
or like sofiaaa said,
'a blessing in disguise'

so, i was preparing to go Malaysia Terengganu.
four days ago,when my dad came home,and told me i got a letter from SHATEC.
myt heart beats super fast.
and i was super anxious that i tore th entire envelope.
haha,seriously.

th first few line caught my eye.

"Dear Ms. Syarifah Azrinatul Nurulhanna,
We are pleased to offer you a placement in Diploma in Pastry and Baking programme commencing on 12 April 2010."

i was elated.
no no.
better than elated.
better than being happy becaue th guy of my dreams proposed to be.
not that i felt like that before.
but, you get what i mean right?!

hahaha, so im at SHATEC.
pursuing a one and a half year of studies to become a Pastry Chef.
so if all goes well, my course will end 03 October 2011.
hahahahaha~! i finish school faster than my friendssss~!
really looking forward to that.
hahahha, lets just push th idea of afraid of beong a loner aside okee? ^^

whats new?

ohhh,
i got myself albums~!

2PM, 01:59 PM
SHINee, Year Of Us
SS501, Rebirth Special Collection
G-Dragon, Heartbreaker
BIG BANG, Big Show 2009

hahaha, im a happy girl.
minus th fact that i splurge on my two month payyyy~

hahaha, it was worth it.
puls i got myself an

iPOD NANO 5th GENERATION
8GB ,purpleeeeee~!

with second payyyy~
haha, but im a happy girl.

ohhh, i cut my hair short.
with many layers.
told th hairdresser to add volume to my hair,and make it short.
whoaaaaaa
th outcome was
^0^

but now its long, so its getting a bit messy for me.
hahha, i still like my new hair~
long gone were th days i have longlonglong hair
that people really love.
but im gonna keep this one long


i miss my girlfriends so much.
and i hope th REUNION plus Azlin's birthday will happen
haha im really looking forward to 24thFeb laterrr~

ohhh,and i changed my blog songggggg~!
G-DRAGON 파이팅~!
im done hereeee peopleeee~!